It's OVER!!The concert is finally OVER!! One down!!

Positive responses from the audience. Which is a good sign.

Maybe cos i had done too many concerts, maybe cos the night back in college did not end well, but was a bit immune to all.

Yes, i would miss the J2s,more of individuals than a batch. We had our fun times together. I wld still tear when i watched the movie they made esp for me while i was in China last yr cos i missed them a lot. Many had grown up over the one yr, matured. It's heartening to see them mature but sometime i miss the boyish-ness in them.

Many said i undermined the J2s n i dun wish to clarify any further. The Heavens can be e witness of my love for them. People i wld miss most: Caryl, Mish,Gabriel,Daryl,Joshua,Bean,
Joanna,Tau. Such caring n understanding people who were there when i was really really down.

I was proud of the J1s on sunday. Proud of the improvement and their co-operation.Keep it up!!

Till date, the concert i love most is still "One Family, One Flag" in 2006. My pride. Let's do it again in 2010!

Today's seminar was damn boring. Was not even paying attention. Ok, did not set a good example, but i also never scold anyone for talking or sleeping. That guy was not boring, just funny, with his weird laughter n all.

Sigh, Victorians only mah.School ranking still lose to HCJC. Ok,i'm a hopelessly proud Hwa Chongian who loves my JC so much!!Yeah!!

Anyway, i was discussing with teddy bear some band stuff, disturbing Raymond to get the Skittles, throwing empty food boxes at Lip Chiau(wow!my aiming damn good!)Yup, doing all sorts of weird stuff except paying attention. Class bonding ah!! Haha!!

Actually, was quite stressed lately.Concert coming,i kept checking n thinking to make sure i have done everything. I think i'm going crazy. I just want this concert 2 be perfect. So that the efforts put in by the students wun go down the drain.

Then i'm quite worried abt band trip,cos of the $$.

Then worried abt my students' academics,both CG n band.

i think i will go crazy one day. N when we had the meeting wrt DSA the other day,i was quite stressed cos like performing arts, i have the loudest voice(ok, that's the truth) n like the entire decision was on me. I mean the wrong choice can affect the DSA intake for performing arts man. It's challenging to be 2nd i/c but it's damn stressed as well, cos of the repercussion of decisions.

I think the class is getting quite bonded. Still playful, n restless. Aiyo, always so talkative. Haha!!So far,no complains!!! Good ah!!now marking is like crazy, madness.

Not enough sleep ah!!!i miss my pillow,my singing carebear.

i agreed with what DP said this morning,abt appreciation. I believe everyone needs to know that they are being appreciated. I guess i have never tell my class how much i appreciate them. It's such a wonderful feeling to feel their presence, to know that they will support u n all.

Haha, n know what? Someone just told me last week, face-to-face, that i had inspired him to be more efficient. Wow!!! I was so impressed as in i have never thought that his efficiency was a result of my inspiration. I have always believed he has the gift in him to excel. That's what i told him. But i'm glad i can inspire someone. Haha! Loud Hailer can also inspire :P So proud of myself! Haha!!

Sorry sorry ah! Have not blogged for a long time. Have not fully recovered from band camp yet. I think the gossip session on the last night which lasted till 4am took the toll on me. Sigh, old already, cannot do without sleep. Have not been fully well lately,hope i wun fall sick.

I got a pleasant surprise from my CG last fri. As i was sorting out the compositions they submitted, i came upon an orange card. I was like "omg! they submitted someone's birthday card!!" Then upon closer look, i realized the card is for me!! haha!! For someone who can't draw, i really admire the talent my students have, drawing the figures on the card.

Hmm, there is a sentence i dun really understand in the card. Then i think, n think till my head nearly crack, then i finally understand. Haha!!

Soooo sweet really of the class to give me a hand-made card to cheer me up! It really makes my day,nearly cried again. I have always believed nothing is more valuable than anything hand-made. It may not be pettite or elegant but it holds many efforts n thoughts. I still remember the days when i planted pots of flowers for my CG during the J2 farewell assembly. Went to Cold storage to buy the soil, the seeds and then to Ikea to get the class bottles. They cost quite a lot. It was time consuming filling 24 bottles with soil and seeds, tying ribbons and writing their names on the bottles. But it was fulfilling.

Thank u so much, my dears of 08S05 for all the care and concern u have shown and given me! Thanks for giving me the motivation to come to school each day, to feel the sense of pride when i see all of u, of course not forgetting the moments of high blood pressure!

Hmm, sidetrack a bit, can u all dun talk during scripture readings? Must respect the speaker n the religion. I'm so afraid one day my eyes will pop out cos i glare too much at those who keep talking. (ok,it's a lame joke,u can laugh now)

Thank you Huiling for your little note of encouragement! i really appreciate it!!

Haha, people may say i'm over-reacting but i can only say, u will never understand the pain n hurt unless u r in my position. I have lose the courage to face myself n the people involved. i can't fight back cos i have used up my strength n courage over the 6 yrs.

I dun want to think abt it but it is easier said than done.

a word just came to mind: condemned.

On a happier note, CONGRATULATIONS to Eric,Li Ming and Anson!! Our class got 3 SCs!! Cool! Must take good care of our welfare hor, our welfare comes first!! Haha!!

People have been asking me: how's ur class? My ans to this question has also been: hardworking, no discipline problem. I guess i am really fortunate to have very good CG for my 6 yrs.

this yr, when people asked me the same question, my ans has changed. My class is naughty,fun-loving. A bit unlike the norms of Venn n boy, am i glad it is so. Though they may appear to be prim n proper before me, but the minute my back is turned, they r up to some mischief. U can just see the tinkle of mischief in their eyes :P

U will be surprised to know that the boys can never keep quiet. The only time when they do so is when they are really really tired. Though sometimes it can be quite a task to get them to quieten them down, but believe it or not, they are really darlings in their own ways.

There are sporty people, demure people, studious people, it is a mixture but i believe they will love one another and be together as a class.

i'm proud of them for getting their tasks done on time, for putting in the effort to come to school on time. My only little request is to tone down a bit on their naughtiness :P but then again, life may be boring then.

well well, we can't have the best of both worlds.

Whenever i'm down, i would think of the funny things they have done and it would light up my day. I so hope that things will stay this way, that they will always be my motivation to come to college n enjoy my day. Lately, there are just too many disappointments for me to stay +ve.

Thank you!! :)

A very big thank you to 08S05, my CG for making my day! A day full of surprises! I was real touched when i saw the cake n the card. It was beautiful cos it has the class photo!

The real surprise came when i saw the pooh under the visualizer! I thought it was the piglet on my pencil case. Later i remembered piglet could not have looked this big under the visualizer. It was only then i saw the Baby pooh! So cute n cuddly!!

I love the ring, luckily i never gobble down the cake, otherwise i would have either swallowed the ring or break my teeth! haha!

the best part was when u all sang the birthday song. U just can't seem to stop singing. N this 'disease' caught onto my other chinese class who started singing birthday song to me. n they started telling people, regardless of whether i know them or not, that it is my birthday today! so in the end, all my chinese classes knew that it is my birthday today n they started singing the song whenever they saw me. I was so paiseh, though i really appreciate the well-wishes.

I counted the number of times u all sang the song. 7 in all! Excluding the one sang over the phone :P

I can't tell u how much i really appreciate e effort n time taken in buying the gift. I can only say that i have never expected the surprises today cos i admit on a comparative basis, i have not been spending enough time with the class. This is one aspect i have failed and I really apologise for this.

Lastly, i just want to tell you that all of you have made this a very memorable birthday for me. Thank you so much!! :)

One Down

Esplanade concert is finally OVER!!!!!

i can finally focus on my own concert.rehearsal on next monday. omg!! dun know if we can really make it in time.

after rehearsal is SAS' my first concert. then band trip admin, ban concert, then a public performance in Ngee Ann City n we r off to Perth! Hectic!!!

1st, i need address some issues. Hello People! the deadline on the form is 28th mar, then it is 28th mar. No one except the teachers-in-charge of the CCA can extend this deadline.i really dun give a damn whether ur friends said 31st also can submit or not. the deadline is given 4 a reason. it is to give e various tutors involved time to think of recommendations. u want a fair assessment, u got to give us time, it's not as if we just sit there n wait 4 lessons or ur forms. Dun do things at the expense of others. I was seriously quite angry when i received such ridiculous requests yesterday when things at the rehearsal was already very hectic. I would give it to u this time but there will be NO next time. I will just put Not recommended if history chooses to repeat itself. Simply cos if u can't even adhere to simple deadlines, how can u lead the entire student body n be a role model?