weeks flew without me knowing what i had actually been doing. Busy with what, i also dun know. Moving in and out of meetings, going home late, doing proposals. Everyday is the same cycle, meetings, meet students,do proposals, sleep. Damn tiring.

But i think it has become a routine. A thing that i have gotten used to, finally, this week.

It seems the work is never-ending.When u thought u have covered one aspect, then u realised u had neglected the other aspect. Arts Enrichment, Band, Civics, Academics, my Exams, i seriously dun know how to prioritise. Arts Enrichment is already such a huge bulky component, which encompass the whole school n Performing Arts, activities internally n externally,it's taking up 70% of my time. Other components, like Band, Civics, Academic n my own studies have to copy the 30%.

I have not met my own expectations. N that's bad

N now i only want to give thanks to the response for the sign up yesterday, the help rendered by Yuxuan for taking time off to come down n conduct the band as well as providing advice. Seriously, i think the band feels more secured with him ard. i truly appreciate all that he had done for them :) And this is my thanksgiving for feb :)

I miss the band really terribly. I totally dislike what i'm doing now, i hate meetings, i hate all the stupid things i have to do.

I just want to go back to where i was last yr, to find the passion in e day-to-day things i do.

The only place where i find e peace n calmness i want is the bandroom. I'm so scared one day it would be taken away from me. THen i have nowhere to run to.

I would give anything to have my new portfolio taken away. Anything.