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just got the confirmation yesterday. i will be leaving in june next yr. when i looked at the letter, i thought i should be feeling happy. Yet, i was lost. i blanked out totally. then,i was overwhelmed by sadness. memories flooded me. yes, 7 yrs of emotional attachment is not something that can be let go overnight.

I felt like crying, though i dun know y. I even started to question myself, did i make the right choice from the start when i submit my application. But even it is the wrong choice, there is no turning back. Starting from yesterday, everything i do, it is for the last time--my last open house, last band trip, last tune-in, last band camp,last yr preparing students for A levels, last Civics Class,last band concert etc.

I made me wish time will move slowly, so that i can remember and cherish every moment. I only want to bring with me fond memories cos this is the place where spent 7 yrs of my life in, the place where i met wonderful students/pple, where i grow and learn.

Though everything is "last xxx", i'm glad i choose to leave in june cos at least i can be there to give out GCE A level certs to my Civcis Class in 2010,handing out my congratulations; to see my band on the stage of Esplanade Concert Hall (marvelling at how i have watched them grow from Sec School students to JC students, from JC students to Alumni.); to end my band journey with the 2009 batch.Only with these, i can leave with no regrets, knowing i have completed what i started out with.

I started my career with dreams and love. I hope to end it with my dreams fulfilled and love, completed.