I’m at the crossroad again.

I was given the opportunity to move on in my career, to leave my current workplace and move on to greener pastures. It is a temptation, cos it is a new place where I can learn new things. There are just so many things out there for me to learn.

But I’m torn, not cos I dun want to leave my comfort zone but cos this came too abrupt. It was never in my plan, my future plan. I had planned for my “retirement concert” in 2010, planned for the Band trip in 2009. I had so much wanted to do the concert in 2010, it is my dream. Even if I die after that concert, I die with no regrets. But now, I’m not even sure if I can do it. N next yr is SYF, it is a period of rigor and I so wanted to be there to give my students the support they need, just like what I had done for their seniors—staying for late night practices, sewing the college crests and fallen buttons on the blazers……

On top of this, my CG will be JC2s next yr. I wanted to walk the journey with them, to spur them on for A levels, to share their joys and disappointments. 2009 is such an important yr n I dun even know if I will be around to do all these.

Of course, if I would to comfort myself, I can say I could still give my band the support by dropping on their wed or sat practices. But the feeling will be different, I will be then an outsider. The same applies for my CG.

I dun know what decision should I make. There is no right or wrong decision. How I wish next Monday will not come.