One Week Down

Having seen all the classes, i think most of them are quite ok. I dun really feel much abt lessons nowadays, cos of what had happened during one of the meetings this week.

Though the responsibility is there to ensure each n everyone of them does well, the passion has died.

What is the purpose in doing so much, going all the way out to print exam papers, to look for better ways of teaching ,to prepare the work n yet at the end of the day, it's not appreciated?Getting stressed n worried when students dun do well academically when it really should be independent learning? Is it really my job to go n search for past yr papers, my duty to force students to plan their study schedule n follow up on that? To mark GP n Econs outlines, check my students' exercise books to make sure they have done all the TYS questions n seek consultation?

Then what abt my admin stuff? What abt my own CCA? What abt the welfare of all the Performing Arts in school which i'm in charge of ? N now doing the admin for SAS Band as well? What abt the committee set up just to work on the allocation of funds for trips?It's such a heavy responsibility cos it is concerning the finance of the entire school.

To me it is not the workload that makes me tired n upset. The reason y i said i'm damn irritated by students who say my timetable is slack is cos it gives the inference that i have lots of time to kill. N yet they r the ones at the receiving end of things that have be done for them. So in a sense, they do seem to be taking things for granted. As this is the general attitude of generations to come, it is fine by me. If u dun know how to say "thank u", it's ok. But just shut up n dun make so many comments.

I just dun want to go to school onw day to find out that cos of all the hurtful remarks some students make,i have lost the ability to love n care for the rest. The result of a hurtful remark is like someone driving a knife slowly into ur heart. U can't forget n never will. U may think it is fun but it's not.