Haha, i love having pictures on my blog!

Ok,I'm losing it. I'm losing what i need to have as a band teacher. I dun know y.Or rather i do know y, but i refuse to face it cos i'm not ready to do so.There was a period of time when there were so many things going thru my mind, trying to find solutions for the best of both worlds. I thought that period was over, at least for these 2 weeks. But now it's back. I wish i can "invite" pple to leave,cos it's really making me angry. Y should leeway be made when in the 1st place everyone is told what is in store for them? I hate to be put in a difficult position but they r always doing this to me. N in the end, at the end of the day, i get understanding neither from the individual nor the group.

Twins has become history.

An incident happened recently that made me rather angry n discouraged. The mere thought of it made my blood boil. I swear if the person said the same thing to me again, i would definitely scold him, even if it would affect the relationship.

Now thinking of it pissed me off. It may seem to be insignificant but to think that all ur effort put in to fight for something became someone's credit, how would u feel?U get all the shit n blacklisting, got what u want, n then it turned out that it was believed to be someone's credit.

Those who have not tried fighting with higher authority, u try the next time u go n work. Damn pissed off.

I was happy for Joshua(band) that his results for common tests were better, though he said it was still below his expectations. As for the rest of the members who need to see me weekly, i sincerely hope that they will buck up. Haha, went to Pop bookstore with mish n we spent like half an hour choosing a chem reference book. Made the lady opened 2 books for her to browse thru. I wanted to buy my Nanny mia game but too many pple came in so i decided to buy it the next time. Aiya, that mish was still tempting me to buy the game. After half an hour of browsing, we decided to buy this colourful book but her card got rejected,so used mine lor.HAha. THEN, this dear girl of mine dun want to bring the book around so she "deposited" it in my staffroom. Haha. I can see that she is working,more diligently than last year n it's real comforting to know that.

But that Hayden was really the death of me. I whacked his head twice with my notebook during our session. My blood pressure really went up man! I'm so worried abt his academics.

Sigh, i dun ask for much, but just self-discipline, doing what u need to at the right time, that's all. As long as u have given ur 101 %, the rest is sometimes beyond our control. That's what exams r all about.

Going for my dip. with ABRSM soon.

Went to CNB with my class today for Learning Journey. It was kinda fun.

Mr Low was obessessed with his Panadol theory. Joshua said we should have sold d**gs for the Street Market as it was such a lucrative trade.

I think the presentation was ok and i learnt quite a lot. The best part was there was tea break n a bag for the students. There was like my favourite eclair n curry puff n i could not eat cos i got cold n bad throat :(

Haha, the girls n myself made fun of Teddy Bear Eric cos he was on the phone the minute we came out of the seminar room for tea break n was so busy he had to eat as he talked. So i called him the "Boss".

Btw Mr Eric Chan is the Kungu Panda of the class!!**Clap**

Hmm,after i have fully recovered next week, i will need to settle some discipline issues with some pple in the class.

I really need to get well!!

My sore throat is better after taking the powerful lozenages. But now i got my 2nd most HATED illness: Headache!!! It's not just any headache, its a POUNDING headache!!!

My nose is still running, my eyes r so watery n i think a cough is coming. My old bones r aching.

Pls. Let me get well soon. I have so many things to do, next week is the start of all my added-on consultations n weekly review. Pls, i need all the good health i can get.

Know who these people are? They are people who had made my 2007 beautiful. They are the people whom i have grown to love and care n will miss.

The most precious gift they had given me as a band, is the video clip on them playing "Fairy Tale"

For the 1.5yrs we spent together, i did not tell them that i love them. I told them i would miss them terribly when i left for China last yr. But ever since then, I had not told them i love them. But i know i do.

Lately I passed by my alma mater everyday cos it is part of my journey home after oral exams.As I looked at my juniors wearing the familiar uniform, I felt a sense of pride.

I suddenly remembered what my Econs tutor used to tell me: U dun find JC students cute anymore. How true! But y then am I here? What do I really wish to accomplish?

For the rest of the journey, I kept thinking abt this question. At long last, I got the answer. I wanted to impart what my teachers had given me to my students. For example, my English teacher in Pri School taught us the Edward de Bono 7 thinking hats, as well as CORT. I dun think schools have these as part of their curriculum but I really benefited from these.

I’m sorry if I sound arrogant but since young, my parents gave me the best education. Although I believe that there are talents everywhere but I also believe that somehow SAP schools or the top schools are what they r for a reason. Although I dun know what these reasons r,but I had benefited from their prog.

The gap between elitist colleges and others narrows at the JC level. I think my students can also be of top 5 caliber. In fact, some have proven so. What do they need to possess? From what I observed from my 80 pointers, the common trait is consistency, the ability to question, and the quest for knowledge. My CG of 2006 also had this trait. They were hungry for knowledge. They wanted to learn more, they read up, they encouraged and shared with one another their knowledge. In the process, they also tested their own understanding.

Though I did not do very well for my A levels(there were times when I doubted my ability cos my results were real bad in JC compared to my classmates), I know I went beyond my own limits in my 2 years in HJC. I always had my tutorials done no matter how hectic life was. For 2 yrs, I did not go out with my friends cos I knew I need the time to study. I know to many students now, it’s really like no life. But so what if u have lots of “life” n at the end of the day, u screwed up ur A levels? Ur cert is not going to show how colourful ur life in JC is, it’s just going to reflect ur results, not forgetting ur CCA. Hmm, I got A2 for my CCA grade man! Haha!

Mayb I did not accomplish the part of imparting the knowledge to my students, I will try harder. The process of teaching critical thinking is hard n dry. It really depends on whether u want to learn it or not. Hmm, now I think I know y I love PW so much. I really like this subject n KI as well.

I really really need to cheer up. I had a horrible night with a nose that ran all over the place n my most hated sore throat!!

I HATE SORE THROAT!!My day is ruined cos of this.N i felt a bit cold, not cos of the weather.

Went to see a doctor after lessons just now. N he gave me the super power lozenages.I had those when i fell sick during last yr's band camp. Real good. N he gave me a MC for tmr. But i think i wun be using it cos tmr still got oral exams plus lessons n consultation too.

I need to get well so that i can be happy again. I hate falling sick cos it always demoralizes me. :(