Kungfu Panda left Singapore today. Couldn't help but feel a tinge of helplessness and unwillingness to let go. It's hard, after all, he's my student and such a nice boy......

Having mixed feeling now cos just got to know my workload for next yr. It's a new position- acting subject head for performing arts. Yup. In charge of harmonising all the performing arts as well as promoting performing arts in our college. LIke what DP said, it is a blank page for me to draw on. I'm not sure if i can handle such a huge portfolio, just imagine, all the performing arts under ur wings, not only in terms of their achievements and progress, but academics and finance as well. It's like the portfolio of band magnified many times. I'm worried cos this yr, i have already been just surviving on buns n sandwiches for lunch for 99.9% of the yr cos the admin is really that much. Next yr?? I eat oxygen. Haha!!

I know it is a challenge but i'm worried that i would neglect the needs of band.I have requested for extra band teacher. Hope this time, i will get someone who can really lighten my load. I have many ideas in mind now, waiting to be penned down n put in place. But first i must do my research during the hols.

I'm not worried abt my teaching cos, firstly, my classes will be cut, secondly, i have already completed the materials for next yr. BUt DP said i must also work on the IP for my department. What it means i dun know but surely will mean more work.

I'm want everything to be perfect cos i'm a perfectionist. Omg! I just remembered, next yr march i have to start my preparation for the Esplanade concert! Oh god! How am i going to survive?

There are so many things to learn, so many things to worry about- i need to work on the june trip next yr too. The $$$ for purchase of accessories cos apparently Mr G wants to buy many many expensive stuff which the budget may not allow.Damn!I'm so stressed up now!!! Arrgh!!

I'm seriously unsure if i can do my job well and DP said next yr i have to attend leadership training courses. I know next yr i will have lesser time to myself. But i do hope whatever comes my way, it wun affect my running of the band cos i have stuff which i want to put in place, new stuff. It is a huge jump from teaching to leadership, way beyond my imagination.